Well its been a little while since Ive posted- so I figured I would write a little update. Currently I am living in Maryland- working at Walter Reed- and for the most part things are good. I complain a lot- but really- Ive been very blessed. My final assignment was released last week. Ill be going to 5C- a general medical surgical floor. Its not Wounded Warrior- which is what I want- but everyone has to start somewhere and I'll be working with some great people! Im just hoping that in due time Ill get my chance to work downstairs, which has been my dream all a long. So for now Im praying that God shows me his plan and helps me take everything in stride. Matt is still deployed- him being gone has really made me realize what a huge part of my life he is- and how truly blessed I am to have him. I'll tell anyone who will listen about how great he is and how much he has done for me. Im one lucky lady!
As for former Ted the Tumor- and then the baby Teds- things have been... unusual lately. Since I had surgery in August I have been almost completely pain free. Minus the usual discomfort of having surgery and recovering- or when I would exercise too hard- things have been good. But lately things have been changing. Ive started to notice that my stomach has started to "pooch" again- not like before- this time a lot lower in my abdomen. At least I dont look pregnant! And some of the pain has returned. Nothing like it was before. THANK THE LORD- but randomly throughout the day Ill catch myself holding my stomach the way I used to or splinting. Makes me nervous. The last ultrasound I had in December showed that I had more tumors growing- and honestly I should probably go in to have things "checked out"..... but honestly- Im sort of enjoying blissful ignorance. You ever just have that feeling that something is wrong- or is going to go wrong? Ive had that feeling ever since surgery. It is what it is. Most people tell me I'm just paranoid- but I sort of have this crazy acceptance about the whole thing. Plus another reason for not wanting to go get "checked out" is that Im not a huge fan of the doctor I saw last. Just goes to show you- having a good provider really does make a HUGE difference in treatment. Well, thats all for now- :-) heres to my continual blissful ignorance!
